Janka's log

Today at the gym in a group conditioning class I realized that I have learned something more than steps and movement in dance class. I have learned to not get immediately frustrated if I cannot get choreography, and with choreography I mean any sequence of movements to be executed in a particular order.

I think this was evident at my latest short-lived attempt at re-entry to swordsmanship, too, but I only realized today. When I don’t get the set steps, instead of getting fussy and cranky, I am able to stop, despite everyone else moving around me and doing it with apparent ease and grace, and to watch either the guy demonstrating or someone who looks like they know what they are doing, and then try it again. And again. And again. I also think, though I did not get to try it today, that I have developed the ability to get a giggly fit at the side of the salle instead of going nuts if I do not get it after the fifth try.

I don’t know where this comes from, but I suspect part of it is self-confidence. I know that I have the ability to learn complex choreography and that eventually, I will get it.

(Note to swordsmen: I am already plotting my next attempt at re-entry. You are not rid of me yet.)